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if the woman
        If the woman is a stone
        bury her in blue water,
        If the woman is a knife
        rub her til she's sharp.
His voice is a rattle at the bottom of a tin cup.
His arms are spurs, and rusted
where metal pinches leather.
He shakes like a drum in firelight
with the last fist still fresh on his back:
        ama sa'ni, she grow curved low like a horseshoe,
        she pull stories from lamb wool, wrap up
        our toes in cotton words,
        I go walk on her clouds when I sleep.
she say:
        Before the men with chins like rocks and the women
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mice and men
beyond the wave-break days
I could not stand the pyramid of shoes,
and treated key holes in locked doors
as bone keys on an upright:
       a frantic surprise, a brave horn,
       the whip snap of a mouse trap
when the brass knob turns
my face unfolds.
when they bent my father's head back,
I still remember the laughter as his own,
caught in the air before the spine
struck lightning on sky flesh.
he had held my ear the way they peeled
back his lips to unearth gold,
he had held my ear and spoke
in oily slips of smoke:
"be smaller than dust,
expand in sun, divide self
in cold night,
hold your mother where the breath
passes in chimneys by the heart,
and run within the walls-
they want men, not mice."
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the hard year
in the hard year
the house was a bruise-
blood clotting and pregnant
beneath the wood.
the rooms held darkness longer
than light
and smelled of life in reverse-
      our young bodies bent, but tight as clothes-pins.
the flowers in the yard were firecrackers
and more than once I slept
in a weed jungle, fingers stripped cables,
wrapped in chicken wire boxing gloves.
in the hard year,
you hit like your father
and I climbed stairs
without making a sound.
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winter song
I paid for you in silver dollars,
rabbit bones, and snail shells.
Beneath the flannel crush,
a twining of lash fingers,
I weight you with catamount claws,
I bury you in firewarmed stone
You are mine,
and I eat you with moth mouth
and spin you to silk.
When the winter stripped aspen bark
and the elk starved til their hooves
were too light to keep them tethered-
I carved the shape of a palm beneath the doorwood
and you tied three husk dolls to the tallest sapling.
We were a bowl, carved hollow and narrow
as pine needles and pressed against coals
and dog fur, leaning like lightning away
from blistered earth, taut with freeze,
away from wood, shrunk and sap-sticky-
dove tails untied and ribboned and bare.
Your spine is a naked rope and I climb you
to clouds rippled like sea-sand, my eyes
are bottle glass green.
I seize waves and swallow them to smoke.
You pad my throat with ash and
settle my bones with sandstone
and sink me to mud, coffined in ice.
You sell my teeth for cornmeal and
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pink carnations
West Delmar Jimmy carries pink carnations
tied with pixie stick paper
home to a woman who dips string in wax
and braids the hair of half-black babies.
He stands behind the bus driver,
he walks uneven red brick
and stops to collect cigarette tails.
The church where he married her has a broken window-
and the aspersorium lies on its side,
and the pew where he cried for King is burned,
and ash whispers the secret language of cracks in wood.
He kisses her where the ear blossoms into floss hair
and her gate-mouth reveals a tongue like pink carnations.
He speaks of rains between cloud cheeks,
he speaks of honey and orange slices to catch fruit flies.
She speaks of tomorrow’s good day,
she lies on sunflower sheets and dreams the ceiling will cave.
When the flood comes,
they pour chalk around the yard and wait for the white line to rise.
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I do recall
I do recall:
curled smoke on pillows never meant to see light,
wishing the window sill were deeper-
     so I could sleep against the glass.
a candle brushing cigarettes,
a bowl of money by the lamp
but it's not Spring,
and your arms were never thrilling.
I get along without you very well
black lace to cover modest breasts,
you wear your uniform to town and drink.
I kiss you roughly when you come home with lipstick
between the bullet and the tree house scars
but when rain drips from leaves shaped like coins,
I get along without you very well.
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incomplete verse
We hovered the barrow from the milkhouse roof,
      little cleft hooves straw-dancing,
      scribing moon shapes in the floor wood.
The broke-walk boy with a toothpick cane
      tickled the peach-eared sow
      and we watched like light bulbs brightening before burst.
Then the swine went spinning from the crisscrossed door,
      twine thatched around her swell belly.
She took to the earth like a gravedigger’s child and bore
      her weight into the night swifter than an owl.
And we waited like those demons before Jesus,
begging to be sent out into that herd,
Watching the pig drown itself in the creek,
       our handprints in her flesh.
I took to the river in a shoe horn boat,
widdlin’ the water with a finger hollowed to bone.
hid a hundred prayin’
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May Day
Today is a May day
and I am tent-faced
yellow swarms
are stiffering to flap-leaves-
I would cheek them, but oh,
those stingers never drip with honey
the deer with the pendulum ear
walked from Cimarron through eight lights
and a prattling fort (boys who’ve discovered splinters
are worth hand-built homes)
and licked the gravestone moss
'til he broke from the gates
(as lava wrinkles around stones)
and was struck by the car who’d sounded its horn
You were on the airplane
until breadcrusts soaked up the puddles
in your lap
from the pillow sweats of that small child
whose mother you’ll love in a month
and I am tent-faced,
dusting din from the sleeves
of the never-wash dress
and tucking silver forks
between the mattress and the wall
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I should tell him
I am on an airplane.  It’s not in the air.  So I guess it’s more of a groundplane, or
a tarmacplane.  It’s not just me.  There are twenty-two rows, with four seats and an aisle.  No one sits in the aisle, but everyone seems really excited to stand in it.
I am sitting because I wore too-small shoes.  I saw them at the store and didn’t care that they weren’t in my size.  My love will make them fit.  
I adore you, can’t you tell?  Just try not to hurt me.
I am sitting, and there is a man in the aisle (of course), and his pocket is touching my cheek.  This pocket is empty. It is the most empty pocket I have ever seen.  It is so empty that something must be missing.  I want to tell the man that he lost his wallet, or his phone, or a deck of playing cards or cigarettes.  I want to tell the pocket to be brave.  It is his d
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yellow bird
yellow-bird with coffin breast,
roosted sling of matchsticks and spider legs-
I’ve watched her strip them in twilight
from bulging blood bodies, grapes she’ll eat,
wine to throat, a song to sing beneath slated roof.
A screw, a bolt, I’ve turned a winding fir
branch into mechanics of hands and clutching.
A trap: salted fish with thumbtack scales-
an unkeeping of flight, on the snow of the perch.
I sweep song to ring with muted clapper,
between beak hammered shut,  
wool-bite moth with snap-close wings,
pinned to a curl behind my ear.
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When they hanged the black man from Roopville, my mama burned
all the white curtains in the house and buried the ashes under a rattleweed,
and said He will send the teeth of beasts upon them.  
Then those Clifford boys strung their shoelaces
together and rolled their sister’s Kewpie in mud
and left her swinging from a yellow poplar;
      you wouldn’t think honey could roll so slowly in the middle of summer
      but then you remember that honey ain’t sweat, and it sure ain’t blood.  
      And you could hear the bees for days.
They hanged that man for resting his chin on fence of a woman
whose husband used to hold her head
under bathwater, while he dyed his brown shoes unrecognizable.
(A couple years later, that lady’s husband caught some guilt
between his collarbones, and choked to death on the Flint River,
the same year all those folks died in a shar
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her teeth are bricks;
mortar sweet Spanish,
        she speaks in velvets and reds
and puts the phalanges on the fire hydrant.
a baby, round and ringing like a bell,
tucked between denim and lanugo
and silver through ears.
twelve years old:
she's weighty,
like a cigar man blew smoke into her stomach
like a cloud was mistakenly inhaled
from a laugh,
from a saturday morning floor-sleep-wait
for gunslinging,
         that un-comes,
replaced with staccato of cartoons.
on the train,
her paddle feet tucked under the rain mat,
she tells her baby "Georgia tastes
like peppermint-cool summers"
and her braid sways like a Cherokee Rose
and the boy balls his fists like Tiger Flowers-
         they will unfurl as butterfly wings,
         stained-glass and webbed,
         when she sips gold tea
         and bends up her legs
         and starts to breathe.  
he cries; he speaks in a drawl.
She learns to fake it.
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Our feet bled from seashells
under the lighthouse stove light
beaming raccoon streaks in
saltwater sky.
We looked all night, where the bottle glass
was licked smooth;
we pulled seaweed from whalebone ribcages
calling it her hair dissected from a comb.
The soul is the lamp of god
Ve'imru omeyn
Mother walked backward into the ocean
the morning I married that siren-eyed boy.
The blood orange
segmented on ashwood tabletop:
     I'll see a sunset running-juice
     tucked between your lips,
     spilling into cupped hands.
and he rose before the deer woke
and took a shotgun to the edge of the water
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good weather for fishing
He thinks it is good weather for fishing.
The second woman
with old hair and powder made from crushed seashells
sips swamp water from the mouth of the man with a flat Crow nose
                 and he culls her hair with hands, not his alone,
                 turning her neck into a cornstalk leaning,
                 whispering "Bia, Bia".
He tells the other one, in stockings rolled to her ankles,
that the Whip-poor-will was out last night halving babies
from moonstones, into the dirt they come from.
                 And yes, he saw the fox swallowing
                 up the road with scatterpaws,
                 a fishing rod tucked behind his terracotta fur.
A tick to tell time by; that water must be teaming.
The second woman hangs her body in the air
long enough to say "I never trust a man whose mama
didn't teach him the piano."  
And what kind of fool, with the pockmark face,
lopes in a room beneath the kitchen floor
building trains no man can sit in,
building engines to run on
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Leaves are scales
Winter makes fish skeletons of trees.
The spine-curved man with broom and dustpan
kicks water from the third floor
to the second
to the ground
and hot air balloon eyes deflate.
His rain shower fills imprints from a foot dragged
left and stale, perpendicular and mad,
farming and raking brass dirt.
The grass-bottomed heart, grown high and unwoven
by fingers (hers, another's, his own),
rests in the mirrored cabinet of the upstairs bathroom
where the screen on the window breaks a cat on the roof rail
into inky squares.  He hopes they drip
down the paint chipping yellow,
he hopes the cat-squares run like meteors.
He would see them before anyone else, if anyone at all.
The spine-curved man is building a boat
out of leaves- as leaves are scales, and fish
are efficient and formidable fleets.  He fills the
grass-bottomed heart with pheasants and sparrows
and clay feathered doves and lets the tautness
of almost-song be his anchor.
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go down, in history,
he found me
,a penny,
and palmed off my dirt.
and made me read poetry
under the influence
in a parked Cadillac.
that first night
when he carried me upstairs
I counted ceiling beams
and named them after
elementary school teachers
who probably died
of emphysema the year I
learned to drive.
I am using him
to get well known
and he has grown-up food
in his fridge, so I
can stop going hungry.
I missed four meals last week
and I can see weight loss
in my shower drain,
in my round brush.
I hate that he has
a tie like my father's
and keeps tissues in his coat pockets
and offers me antacids before I
undo my mouth.
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Past Our Dancing Days
A kitchen.   MAN and WOMAN stand centre stage, in front of a counter with drawers.  They are arguing as lights fade on.
WOMAN.  Look. It’s called a double suicide pact for a reason. I kill myself, and then you kill yourself.
MAN.  Why are we doing this again? Do I have to kill myself?
WOMAN.  Yes.
MAN.  I don’t like the smell of blood.
WOMAN. So what?
MAN. I don’t like iron either. Probably because iron smells like blood.
WOMAN.  Shut up.
MAN.  Don’t tell me to shut up.
WOMAN.  When you shut up, I’ll stop telling you to shut up.
MAN.  You shut up.
WOMAN. You’re stalling.
MAN.  Am not.
WOMAN.  Are too.
MAN. Am not!
WOMAN.  Then do it.
MAN.  You were going first.
WOMAN.  It doesn’t matter who goes first. We’ll both be dead.
MAN.  I’m hungry.
WOMAN.  We just ate.
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Frozen by tazosh Frozen :icontazosh:tazosh 7 2 Troy by digitalgrace Troy :icondigitalgrace:digitalgrace 32 11
La Nina means only dry wind
There’s nothing left to burn in Arizona.
The blacktop’s been cooked soft, and each dropped dribble
melts a bit of the rubber basketball and the Second-grader
launching long-shots like Jordan – Trying to make it rain.
The clouds look like they want to - They hang;
heat-waves from the highways meshing into a gray
that promises relief. And none comes.
The evening’s acrylics flake away,
leaving blue to go black, so the sun can breathe
behind the horizon.
The state will not sleep this night. Exposed, self-conscious
under the stars, the ground lies cracked and nude.
Chalk-dust streets and dead grass spoil its surface
like age-lines and moles.
A Weatherman props windows open to tempt the breeze that rattles.
Rattling the leaves that hang from the palms
and blowing the bone-hard blacktop bone-dry.
He dreams of flooding:
Of the rain that comes, angry
whipping the hard packed earth and
roaring like the towers of men falling.
Tempest suddenly thrown--thrashing sand alive.
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Anna Doesnt Want To Be In Love by AnnaInAdottedDress Anna Doesnt Want To Be In Love :iconannainadotteddress:AnnaInAdottedDress 1 5 Innuendo? by Duke-Of-Beaconsfield Innuendo? :iconduke-of-beaconsfield:Duke-Of-Beaconsfield 16 19
I left on a bus to Colorado
Where the meth zombies live with
Their yellow eyes to stare you down,
Over cash registers
And sandy roads.
I took a boat to the islands when I was two,
A photographic memory, of
Presence in a white comforter- fig eating paradise.
OneandaSix, I close up on a couch in blinding,
Sunlight and frantic fingers
In bed, ending a conversation;
A sad incommunication,
My eyes droop down,
Backs are away from each other.
Him I left sitting,
Gray hair twirling poking out of ears
Fluffy shirt over pale skin
In a small yellow room I walked out of a hug.
His eyes watering over,
Months spent teaching me guitar.
His teddy bear fondness on the neck;
And I listened,
But with hands that were uncomfortable on the sharp metal.
I lost my glow in the dark superhero,
In the storm drain,
Then entered shakily from screaming,
Phone calls in an ice wind.
I was hugged by a nymph boy who floats me to the rainy ocean.
I left to be a lonesome automaton in a trailer park bed.
Afterten, with my
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carnival of shivers.
Carnival of Shivers – Closing Day.
+i want to know all the dirty details
i want to go over the debris
with tweezers and baggie
and pick up nail clippings and pubic hairs
i want to forget about everything
i want to go to bed
with the conscience whitewashed
and dream the dream of the forgiven
i want to cast away this hardened shell
i want to break every window
with molotov cocktails
and let the flames kiss my forehead
or then the sordid dawn
will buss the border of my dress
while the orgiastic wind moans
because I presage you
in that intrepid circumspection of your lap
i dilute the laces of my nipples
numbed on my inelegant fingers
i will look from the autumnal fissure of me
at your body: scanty drawn
little almost solid harsh
beascissor + astigmatic - april 2004
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ann and the birdcage by Stantonimaging ann and the birdcage :iconstantonimaging:Stantonimaging 5 2 Heiny by LamePhoots Heiny :iconlamephoots:LamePhoots 1 0
organs don't play the same
We played different colors
on the keyboard,
fingering the silence in between.
The video camera carved a sculpture
for each frame of our hands
moving bones across the keys,
and I
never argued that your fingers
pulled the brighter colors
or that red was never played.  
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We pulled threads off the mattresses
during the hurricane,
wondering if one would pull more
than another silenced feather.
We talked,
storing the words in our backbones
until we had no choice but to lie down
and wait for the whistling outside the window
to catch in our throats
and make us say a different word.
The lights were out
hiding behind the static left by the tv,
while the wind continued to blow it farther away.
We coughed our laughs, then caught them in our toes
and buried them beneath the blankets
so we'd have some left for
when we finally fell asleep.
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There was the tender
in your spatula,
your heavy wok,
and hiding there
between the fires,
a soul, a soul.

Mother, I am mold-born
under your cutting board.
In the moist creases
you thumped me
into being, your knife
a silver flashing
the first light
I knew.
There was the sound
of oil, the sputter, the heat
of chiles, the work, flitter
in your fingers.  The sound
of loud voices, the tang
of hearts burning
in the air.
There was me,
the small cocoon
beneath your watch.
You threw me in
with the peppers—
I simmered and popped,
balanced my small feet
at the tenous surface,
dried my wings
over the flames.
I cooled into the grey moth
you were searching for
in your cookbooks—
the grey moth, for healing.
I landed on your brow,
slowened, undid you.
Mother, I am living
in your creases,
knowing your strains,
your tenses.  I borrow
into your soft parts
like bread in brown
sugar, keeping them soft.  
I help you live, even
when we are cold,
when the stove light
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A miss is as good as a smile
Year-trust is located neck-up.
Carried around
jested, barely missing;
Morals, when will they come -
on whose chopped-off legs?
In which desert's countenance
will the blind man have to feel around for them,
he whose fingerwisdoms
(covered with clay)
grow more slowly
than earth's continents?
What price does a catch come at?
How many fingernails?
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the rebuke of the does
oh god I'm awake again after midnight
will I ever learn it's no use to hide inside
beams or double floors
to study dreams of his father handing me
tequila shots in beer glasses I must be out of my mind
but window panes have crosses like
corridors have corner trouble
and my music is green like forests even if I
bow my head and stare at the keys
for hours
and she rends my heart as her voice cracks
and I sew together all the good words I can think of
but it's not enough
and Aaron wants me to be
a greater heart than I can bear
to have aside from images of knights and dirt
or horsebacks for the outdoor torch whores
and the terribly loved ones
so since I'm not awake enough yet
send me out with buckets and pails
for the water aching to be drawn
and the sea monsters with their ardour
with their angry power trails
because nothing ever looks the same
after someone's had them tamed
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crotchety old man
French Southern Territories
Current Residence: snow
Favourite genre of music: blues
Favourite photographer: Bisson Freres
Skin of choice: yours


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unlockedthoughts Featured By Owner Oct 5, 2015
I hope someday the ink finds its way to the paper again.  And the computer gets involved.  You are beautiful.
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Miss your work sometimes :)
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i like you
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me too
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Me three
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Hope your birthday is a good one, wherever you may be.
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You still here? Nice little universe, this was. Whatever this thing here represented, I guess we will never stop lovin' it.
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happy birthday! :cake:
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thanks :)
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